Slaughtering for the Spirit

Almost a year ago, I promised that I would slaughter an animal. I made this promise during last Ramadan when I attended a no-waste iftar, where I’m pretty sure only vegetarian dishes were served… Anyways, it hasn’t come true. Yet.

The promise came out after eating the various pot-lucked foods off of the plate that I brought from home. I sat down in the circle that was beginning to form around the guest speaker of the event, Ibrahim Abdul-Matin, author of Green Deen: What Islam Teaches about Protecting the Planet.

During our discussion, he urged us to re-cultivate our spiritual connection to the earth and relayed a story about how he killed a chicken for the first time in his life. Ibrahim reflected on how this was a profoundly deep experience in which one can finally comprehend, feel, and smell the reality of where our sustenance actually comes from.

And he shared his vision of how being green was really about waking up to this reality. It isn’t just a mission to track the size of your carbon foot-print or even an effort to save more water in your shower if you could just be a bit stingier about it. It’s about having a deep respect and love for God’s creation.

And it really hit me at that moment to ask myself: Am I someone who blindly takes from the earth? When I eat meat, am I thanking God and the animal for providing for me?

So I thought to myself about the relationship I had with the meat that I ate. Even recently, I was talking with a fellow Pakistani-American about how we hated on daal and other non-meat dishes in our childhood. Back then, meat needed to be in every dish for me; it was something I took for granted and still do.

I told the group during our discussion about how I probably wasn’t going to stop eating meat altogether, but that I actually wanted to have a similar experience so I could appreciate more the meat that I did eat. I wanted a deeper relationship with the livestock that I was consuming.

Since then, I haven’t taken on that challenge. The farthest I’ve gotten is having Is it local?-type moments from Portlandia, which don’t really work out all that well. But once again, I’d like to rectify my neglect of the lives that I’ve been taking by eating meat. By ignoring this sacrifice in my daily life, I have not been honoring this deeper relationship.


So, as I said almost one year ago, I want to challenge myself to slaughter an animal (or at least witness it), in order to start appreciating the cycle of what I’m involved in. As Green Muslims rejuvenates itself these days and provides us with more energy heading into the month of Ramadan, I write this blog post as a renewed promise to face what I’ve been neglecting, though regularly eating.

I also write it as an invitation to those daal-hating meat-eaters like me, to take part in this quest together by the end of Ramadan. And on the other hand, if you’re able to connect us to your farm and you welcome visitors, please contact me as well!

Rizwaan Akhtar is the Volunteer Manager for Green Muslims and works to organize volunteer and community engagement activities. He currently administers an exchange program that focuses on leadership development for Iraqi youth.

Originally from Chicago, IL, Rizwaan has now actually grown to love daal in its many different forms. He sends big thanks to his mom and dad for their wonderful daal.


  1. Thomas Machine
    August 21, 2011 at 10:45 am

    I learned a lot from this post, much appreciated! 🙂